The one

Questions on love, on the one. My curiosity lies on the one. Does every person have only one love that’s real and just on another level in their life time? What about the other people they met who are just as good? Do many people believe in the one? How does one know that this is the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. And what about in cases of divorce. Where do the visions and dreams and wishes go? I really get hurt when my dreams are crushed. I’m a deep romantic and old fashioned when it comes to love. Is there a real love that lasts forever? I always respect and praise couples in their old age who are still together. How do they manage and what’s their secret? I’m at the age were I dream. It’s the in between age from teenland to adult hood and I’m trying to figure out who I am. Is this real? Or the fairy tale IV known as life isn’t what I had dreamed of. The place where I gotta consciously distinguish between fantasy, dreams and reality. Questions questions fill my head
I’m the type of person who likes to ponder and its hard to brush it off until I come up with a solution. I wish I had all the answers but again I love the incognito exploration.

This is when I bid you adue its 11pm. I got to try and sleep.
my mind is too busy contemplating too sleep but I’ll try


Who am I

I sit here wondering who I am.
I wreck my head pondering.
Who am I? Where do I want to be? Where do I want to go? What do I want to do? In my early 20’s. In between young and old. I look around me, my friends are marrying,getting engaged, having babies but yet I still have no clue at what I wanna be. I’m fighting a battle within everyday. Confused. Searching.I hope someday I will reach there. Who am I?

Dearest Diary

What a day today has been and your the first person I wanted to tell. My day has been so full of downs, of drama, a spinning head, a sore throat, voice gone, too much stress and whatnots.

I think I miscalculated and now I’m short and I don’t know where to turn to for help. I’m so drained right now. Haven’t eaten much, no appetite. You know such days when nothing I do makes sense at all. And the people i need the most turn you down.

Diary I was coming from work and I was looking at how the black of the night is beautifully clastered with colorful lights, the wind was blowing softly and its in this weather where I love to take my walks especially when I’m feeling as crappy as I’m feeling today.

This got me thinking, Diary people have numerous ways to de-stress. What’s yours?

Work is hectic by the day. But I enjoy the pay. Not as bad. I’m so cold. Best I get ready for bed.

Just wanted to stop by and say something. I’m being inspired with the posts from the various people I’m following.

Sigh! I’m absolutely glad today has finally come to an end finally. Goodnight.

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Its hurts so bad
Like a cut to the throat
When you work so hard
Just for something to be taken away from you
just for someone to come and say you did nothing
And their word goes as right

It hurts so deep
A shovel to a stone
When youv tried so hard
To please
Only for someone not to notice the hard work
Or for someone else to take the glory

Whatever you do cannot mend it
Whatever you say doesn’t matter
Whatever you did, doesn’t matter
Or seems useless in the end.
All the sweat
All the toil
All in vain

Can someone tell me
What’s the use in trying?
When noone sees?
What’s the use in hoping
When it all falls apart?
What’s the use?

Unappreciated. Many words to say but none can decribe the way I feel right now. Nor do I have the composition in my head of what to say.

Right now I just wanna escape this world. These tears. These thoughts.
I need the rest, the break, from this world.

Where is my hiding place?
My solace?
Where has it gone?
Everywhere I turn seems the wrong move
Everything I say seems the wrong word
Everything I hope for falls apart a thousand times
Where did I go wrong?
What wrong did I do.

Alone and lost in a world full of love
Seems everyone has it right but me.
All I want is love but can never seem to get it. A little care. A little hope to keep me standing.
Where can I go…

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Dearest diary

dear dairy,

I’m drained. I’m so tired, sleep is not working anymore. Got a sore back. My whole body is tired. Work has been good hectic. I’m still tryna work my way around getting more work done.

I’m happy with the people I have in my life right now. I’m happy because we encourage n build, share. Dairy I’m half awake.

Iv forgotten wat I wanted to say. I’m happy with work progress. I am doing well even under the stress. Ok uhmmmm night night I guess

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My love

My love
A deep burning desire
An aching sensation
In my heart of hearts
A longing
A leap in my heart
Dancing to the tune
The tune of love

The image of you
Forever stuck in my brain
Can’t rub it out
Fleeting pictures of time spent
Your smile, your eyes, your hands
Rhythm of the beat goes beyond control
Wishing for you to be near
Even a few feet away
To hear you voice, ur laugh

Reading your body language
Hear you say my name
The name you so love
My fantasy

You maybe far right now
Beyond mountains and borders
Slight possibility of meeting
But one thing I’m sure is
I love you so much
I dream of spending the rest of my life with you
As most people say
You feel it within you
When you find the right one
I think I found him and
He is you

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